Thursday, May 13, 2010

9:17 PM / 0 comments
Please don't tell me it was a success, or that it wasnt my fault.

I know it is my fault. And after all these, I feel even worse.

It's a classic example, an example that will be passed down over and over again, mentioned repeatedly.

And I failed. In all possible sense of the word.

I felt really hopeless and useless. Am I really that bad? Apparently yes.

It has caused so much hu-ha and saga. It's troubled others. It's ruined reputations. It's highly doubted. It's inefficient. It's poorly managed. It's poorly done.

And so I really feel apologetic and humiliated. Embarrassed.

Is this the example I should set? Is this testament to my abilities?

And so I really want to get everything settled and close the chapter.

And I want to do it myself. For I dun want to feel any weaker or hopeless. Nor do I want tongues to wag even more.

It's my mess, I'll clear it.

For I've caused enough damage and harm.

I know you all care about me, I know. But this time, let me be the one to step up to reality alright? For I am pathetic enough.