Friday, May 22, 2009
11:14 PM /
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I guess I've bitten off more than I can chew.
Perhaps it's time I slowed down and clear the mess.
I used to be so enthusiastic, taking this, choosing that, but I guess it's taking its toll on me now.
Screwed. Whatever I thought I'd manage well is screwed. Honestly, I feel bad towards those who have had to bear the brunt of my poor management. While some things are still salvageable now, they arent all that easy anymore.
What used to be easy isnt so straightforward anymore. What used to be reliable just isnt so. What used to be inviting simply irks.
But who am I to blame other than myself right? Yes, I know I can blame others but if it would not be justified for if I hadnt stretched myself this much, I could very well have managed it btr, without others' help. Then I wouldnt have to waste time waiting and get it solved.
Work piles up. Breathers melt down. I really would like to blame and rant and mutter but I guess it wouldnt be right if I did so for after all, it's my fault that I am what I am today. This state of affairs, is perhaps all my doing. I shld have been more discerning.
If I were more discerning, I'd have more time to focus and excel, more time to tire myself out, more time to chase for work, more time to deal with the sh*t you gave me, more time to cool myself down.
Idk, perhaps it's time I switch into overpower and settle all these, my creation or not. Somehow, post-exam period should be fun-filled (save for the getting-back-results-and-suffering-a-near-faint-experience), relaxed and all that.
But it doesnt seem so.
When I get home, the routine goes: switch on comp, open Words, type with left hand, eat dinner with the right, figure out problems, look at clock, express shock at the midnight indication, frantically save and shut down, go to bed, toss in bed, sleep at 1.
I don't know how I'm gonna ride through this, but I'd better. Why? Cuz I dont want him to crumble, her to be disappointed, them to be angry and you to evade.
Perhaps it's time I slowed down and clear the mess.
I used to be so enthusiastic, taking this, choosing that, but I guess it's taking its toll on me now.
Screwed. Whatever I thought I'd manage well is screwed. Honestly, I feel bad towards those who have had to bear the brunt of my poor management. While some things are still salvageable now, they arent all that easy anymore.
What used to be easy isnt so straightforward anymore. What used to be reliable just isnt so. What used to be inviting simply irks.
But who am I to blame other than myself right? Yes, I know I can blame others but if it would not be justified for if I hadnt stretched myself this much, I could very well have managed it btr, without others' help. Then I wouldnt have to waste time waiting and get it solved.
Work piles up. Breathers melt down. I really would like to blame and rant and mutter but I guess it wouldnt be right if I did so for after all, it's my fault that I am what I am today. This state of affairs, is perhaps all my doing. I shld have been more discerning.
If I were more discerning, I'd have more time to focus and excel, more time to tire myself out, more time to chase for work, more time to deal with the sh*t you gave me, more time to cool myself down.
Idk, perhaps it's time I switch into overpower and settle all these, my creation or not. Somehow, post-exam period should be fun-filled (save for the getting-back-results-and-suffering-a-near-faint-experience), relaxed and all that.
But it doesnt seem so.
When I get home, the routine goes: switch on comp, open Words, type with left hand, eat dinner with the right, figure out problems, look at clock, express shock at the midnight indication, frantically save and shut down, go to bed, toss in bed, sleep at 1.
I don't know how I'm gonna ride through this, but I'd better. Why? Cuz I dont want him to crumble, her to be disappointed, them to be angry and you to evade.