Friday, October 17, 2008
8:05 PM /
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Now I see the problem.
It was all my fault. I was so selfish... I only cared about myself and my sch commitments. I did not make time for them. I did nt bother to comfort, listen to or even make them feel cherished.
I was too egoistic to make them feel comfortable around me. Face, face face. That's all I cared about.
I wasnt thoughtful. They probably sufferred with me.
I was making empty promises. I probably disappointed them one time too many.
To think all along I thought it was their (or at least one of them) fault, when the fault lies with me.
All this time I have been making time, for studies, for PA, for sch, for NCC, for SC and so on, I've neglected them. How hurt they must have been.
I aint deserving of them nor the care they showered on me.
I must correct this before more get hurt and before I go around hurting more... I hate myself for who I am...
Others could do a way better job than me. What's wrong with me?! I was a failure, a complete failure.
Hearing of recollections and cherished memories from others rly hurt me: every picture, every word, every emotion.
It was all my fault. I was so selfish... I only cared about myself and my sch commitments. I did not make time for them. I did nt bother to comfort, listen to or even make them feel cherished.
I was too egoistic to make them feel comfortable around me. Face, face face. That's all I cared about.
I wasnt thoughtful. They probably sufferred with me.
I was making empty promises. I probably disappointed them one time too many.
To think all along I thought it was their (or at least one of them) fault, when the fault lies with me.
All this time I have been making time, for studies, for PA, for sch, for NCC, for SC and so on, I've neglected them. How hurt they must have been.
I aint deserving of them nor the care they showered on me.
I must correct this before more get hurt and before I go around hurting more... I hate myself for who I am...
Others could do a way better job than me. What's wrong with me?! I was a failure, a complete failure.
Hearing of recollections and cherished memories from others rly hurt me: every picture, every word, every emotion.