Wednesday, October 22, 2008
10:36 PM /
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Here's your last chance. Take it or leave it.
To be honest, the past 5 months havent been easy at all.
It was lousy to start off with. & it's just getting worst.
Yes, I may appear to be optimistic and all tht bt honestly, i hate doing wht i do.
When no one listens to you, no one respects you, no one cares abt you, the feeling sucks.
Yes, sucks. BIG TIME.
I wouldnt mind less qualifications for the future. And this is the first time I say this.
To be honest, I'd rather give it up all and return to what I was. I might have been miserable, bt at least it wld be less painful than this.
I thank you for supporting me in all (you and some) decisions bt i guess I might wnna let you down. It's either now or I endure a while more and get it over and done with.
When freedom is mine, I'd make a run for it and banish all these bad memories. It's been torturous, stressful and tiring.
Why cant you all wake up?! Do you not care?! Think about others who are striving so hard! Think abt what ppl would think of me! It dosent seem to work and I honestly dislike doing this.
I'd rather just end it all and return to my normal life. I'd rather shout it all out in your face and return to my normal life. I dun want it to end here, bt if tht's wht u guys are gnna do, it's a matter of time. FACE IT.
Those are merely labels. Labels of supposed glamour. Labels of supposed respect. Labels of suppossed capability. Bt to me, they are just labels of torture. Labels of humiliation. Labels that would one day drive me crazy. I'd leave this thing and leave for another place (nt suicidal) where I can just be who I want to be. I'm prepared to pack my bags and banish all memories I ever had of these.
One of these days, I'll pop a bottle of exquisite champagne and celebrate my new found freedom. One I will treasure and hang on to tightly. I'll choose wisely and nt let history repeat itself.
I need to talk to you as much as you need to talk to me. Saturday, hurry!
A place to shout it all out, where I shan't be humiliated or afraid. A place where I truly can enjoy myself.
To be honest, the past 5 months havent been easy at all.
It was lousy to start off with. & it's just getting worst.
Yes, I may appear to be optimistic and all tht bt honestly, i hate doing wht i do.
When no one listens to you, no one respects you, no one cares abt you, the feeling sucks.
Yes, sucks. BIG TIME.
I wouldnt mind less qualifications for the future. And this is the first time I say this.
To be honest, I'd rather give it up all and return to what I was. I might have been miserable, bt at least it wld be less painful than this.
I thank you for supporting me in all (you and some) decisions bt i guess I might wnna let you down. It's either now or I endure a while more and get it over and done with.
When freedom is mine, I'd make a run for it and banish all these bad memories. It's been torturous, stressful and tiring.
Why cant you all wake up?! Do you not care?! Think about others who are striving so hard! Think abt what ppl would think of me! It dosent seem to work and I honestly dislike doing this.
I'd rather just end it all and return to my normal life. I'd rather shout it all out in your face and return to my normal life. I dun want it to end here, bt if tht's wht u guys are gnna do, it's a matter of time. FACE IT.
Those are merely labels. Labels of supposed glamour. Labels of supposed respect. Labels of suppossed capability. Bt to me, they are just labels of torture. Labels of humiliation. Labels that would one day drive me crazy. I'd leave this thing and leave for another place (nt suicidal) where I can just be who I want to be. I'm prepared to pack my bags and banish all memories I ever had of these.
One of these days, I'll pop a bottle of exquisite champagne and celebrate my new found freedom. One I will treasure and hang on to tightly. I'll choose wisely and nt let history repeat itself.
I need to talk to you as much as you need to talk to me. Saturday, hurry!
A place to shout it all out, where I shan't be humiliated or afraid. A place where I truly can enjoy myself.